I think it was about this time yesterday when I was feeling fast heart rate and needed to calm down; with the combo of medication and writing I regained calmness. Well I’m in need of that again, but I’m going to try not having the medication this time.

Today I am not upset. Well, I am but for different reasons. Yesterday I was upset with a person, and today I’m upset with my Covid cough that won’t quit. Being upset isn’t why I am in need of calming now. My body is exhausted and trying to recover from the coughing fits I’ve had within the last hour. They have gotten me out of breath. They cause neck and forehead pain. No me gusta.

Okay let’s try to think soothing thoughts. It’s raining outside. That’s a soothing sound. I can watch it drip through the rear sliding doors. Not as in it’s coming through into the house. I mean outside on the other side of the glass. You know what I mean 🙂

This cup of iced coffee probably isn’t helping the situation, but hey at least I made it at home so it didn’t cost more than a happy meal.

I really need a newer Apple Watch with the heart monitoring features for irregularities. I do have HBP, that should earn me a discount; at least I think so.

Here is a glimpse in my mind for ya: I was talking about the Apple Watch which caused me to see in my mind the inside of an Apple Store which then made me think “oh this is not too far from the food court, I’d love to get some teriyaki chicken and noodles”. There it is. A hint of a smile on my face. I can feel it. I barely remember what a smile feels like these days.

Have you ever watched the show Doogie Howser MD? Remember how every episode ended with him writing a journal entry on his computer? I’m pretty sure that was back before home internet even existed. (Note to self, verify that later). I feel like I need to leave my own touch of Doogie on these posts. A closing thought, or a question to spark new interest.

I am feeling much more relaxed now. Look at me, I did it without prescription help. I must say I’m kinda proud of myself. Maybe after all these months and years of struggle – I have found an activity I can do to help relax me. Therapeutic writing. It doesn’t matter to me if anyone ever reads any of this. I’m not here for followers and likes. I’m here to learn how to self-soothe and express myself.

What do you do when you find yourself in a stressful situation and need to calm down? What works for you?